Standing on the shore

I feel like a kid on the beach right now. 

As the waves recede I hop out to the water chirping in excitement,

but as I see the waves start to come my way again, I scram back to the safe, dry sand,

wide eyed and shrieking in fear.

This is pretty much how I feel.

In the early morning...

when the kids are sleeping and my day has barely started, 

I raise my head, pray and thank God for being strong and I feel like we can conquer anything together. 

But then the waves come crashing up to me

(school, work, adopting 4 at one time, sometimes just waking up a teenager) 

and I want to run for the hot sand.

(and maybe bury my head in it for a while).

I have so many things swimming around in my head right now. 

Still waiting for approval. 

Praying for nothing but approval. 

Hoping it will be this week. 

And Lord willing,

we get approval,

I will run out to the water inviting everyone with me to enjoy it

and I will just feel ecstatic.

Then...

I'll start to see what's coming

and my eyes will widen at the glorious monstrous waves coming toward the shore

and I will retreat again.

The Lord is so good.

I've been praying I Thes 3:11, memorizing it in Spanish and English...

May God Himself, our Father and the Lord Jesus, make a way for us to come to you.  Que Dios mismo, nuestro Padre y nuestro Senor Jesus, despejen el camino para ir a verlos.

 

We are literally seeing Him work out details for us that will help us in the coming months when we travel to Colombia. 

Things we didn't even consider. 

He's like...done. 

I got you covered.

Thank you, Lord.

The past several days as I have been praying for approval...for favor... for what is coming...

MERCY

comes to mind.

Only by His mercy are we at this place. 

Only by His mercy can we face tomorrow.

Mercy and truth belong to those who devise good.

Proverbs 14:22